Loose Ends And Chasing Ghosts

I might have made some progress, but some loose ends make me feel like I am chasing ghosts.

The good news is, I think I am making progress. In summer this year my health was tiny bit better then half a year before. Now it is again a tiny bit better than in summer. Alas, I do less, so maybe that is the reason why I feel better… And whenever I try to do something I still get worse. But my tolerance for doing stuff is slowly improving (I think, I have no real measure). I did some light work on Friday, and today (Saturday) I felt the work from yesterday, but could still do some more –  after that I felt awful.

One "trick" I found is that when I feel awful after doing some (light) work, I can feel better when I drink water – more water than I would normally drink (e.g. two glasses when I would drink only one). However when I drink too much, I feel sick… Fear not, I found another "trick": After drinking too much water, I need to take some sugar (a teaspoon or two, or a fruit) to feel better again. (and oh, I forgot to mention: I feel immediately better – within a couple of minutes – after I take a dump. I wish I knew if this is some blood pressure thing, or if this is some liver thing, or what.)

Another thing I noticed: When I take a bit of sugar, my nose "cleans up". Usually it feels a bit congested, but after taking a bit of sugar (which has to contain fructose – glucose alone does not do the trick!) my nose clears up and I can better breathe (BTW, funny thing, sometimes an orgasm clears up my nose as well…). However if I take to much sugar my nose "dries up" a bit. Something is wrong here, and I don't know what.

The improvement is so slow though, that it is painful (not literally painful, but every day seems like the last). And, whenever I do a bit more (maybe an hour or two a day), I get worse again.

And while I gained about one kilogram over the past month (or two), I am still eleven kilogram under my March weight. I have been carelessly eating stuff when I am not hungry, and that's the revenge for this.

What seems to unchanged is that my sleep is not a slightest bit restorative – on the contrary, I feel much better before sleep, than compared after a "good night's sleep". Shucks. In the morning my muscles hurt and they are stiff. My brain feels only half awake in the morning. I need to take a strong coffee, take a hot shower and about 2 to 3 hours to feel halfway like a human being.

Unfortunately there are still some loose ends. A couple of months ago I made an experiment of only eating fish, no more pork. During that time I developed some slight acne again. Which got slightly worse after I stopped fish and ate pork again. I even got some aphthous ulcers.

Now it took some time before the acne wound down again, during which time I removed olives, mustard, bananas and sausages from my nutrition.

Yesterday I ate a banana (not completely ripe), fish (smoked mackerel) and olives and got one slight ulcer.

So what did cause my acne/ulcers outbreak over the past months?

• Some weird fish protein / pork protein thingy
• Olives
• Mustard
• Sausages (or rather the casing of sausages)
• Bananas (possibly unripe?)
• Smoked meat/fish
• Food contaminations
• Toothpaste (certain brand)
• Something completely else
• All of the above
• Some of the above
• None of the above
• No external cause

Back to chasing ghosts…

And lest I forget: I have been occasionally eating some bread, and I do have the impression that I feel worse afterwards. The effect isn't too strong (and I could not swear that it is caused by bread), but I feel kind of "dehydrated" and "dry" for half a day to maybe one day.